Give me practical I will do it! Tell me a sport to play I will do my best! Chuck some theory work at me.. I fail! I cannot do theory without the help of my mum, seriously if I didnt have her to help me with everything I would fail! I have something wrong with me I have to have something wrong with me I cannot focus I cannot do the work I do not understand it I know what I have to do but I cant to it! What is wrong with me :(
i feel so stupid around my friends the get great grades and they do it all on their own so they ask a few questions here and there but they do most of it on their own. I have help the whole way!
I feel lost and stupid!
:'(
xx v
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
1 year 2 months.
Hello there :)
long time no talk..
well I think I am finally starting to move on from R
It has been exactly 1 year 2 months since he left.
There is a song called Addicted by Stevie Hoang that
is pretty much song of my life.
It even says since you've been away its been 1 year 2 months.
Like I still really like him, he was the first person I have truely loved
so I will never completely moved on.
I wonder if we would still be like we were if he was still here.
All I can do is wonder now.
This new guy is one of my friends : so of course I do not want to risk
anything and I couldn't see him liking me anyway.
He thinks of me as a friend, someone he can trust with his problems.
All of my friends see me this way, they share everything with me.
I feel as though I am everyones shoulder to cry on but my ony question is
Who is mine? I always listen and give my advice, even on the days
when I am having my own problems I never snap I always listen,
but I feel I am annoying people when I tell them so I do not bother, but
everyones problems are weighing down on me.
Then I add my problems with my school work and my job and it is so stressful
I can not handle it.
I have to go I will write more later on a happier topic :)
xx
long time no talk..
well I think I am finally starting to move on from R
It has been exactly 1 year 2 months since he left.
There is a song called Addicted by Stevie Hoang that
is pretty much song of my life.
It even says since you've been away its been 1 year 2 months.
Like I still really like him, he was the first person I have truely loved
so I will never completely moved on.
I wonder if we would still be like we were if he was still here.
All I can do is wonder now.
This new guy is one of my friends : so of course I do not want to risk
anything and I couldn't see him liking me anyway.
He thinks of me as a friend, someone he can trust with his problems.
All of my friends see me this way, they share everything with me.
I feel as though I am everyones shoulder to cry on but my ony question is
Who is mine? I always listen and give my advice, even on the days
when I am having my own problems I never snap I always listen,
but I feel I am annoying people when I tell them so I do not bother, but
everyones problems are weighing down on me.
Then I add my problems with my school work and my job and it is so stressful
I can not handle it.
I have to go I will write more later on a happier topic :)
xx
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Thinking
day 24 of the new year.
I am still thinking of him all the time!
Nearly every song I listen to I think of him so much!
When I am laying in bed he is on my mind.
Is that weird... I cannot stop thinking about him, but yet I still do not
know how I feel... obviously there is something but I am so confused!
I miss him.. I know that much.
I think about how everything would of turned out if he stayed...
but he didn't so what is the point he is gone..
I have not seen him since he left that day.
We talk on computer every so often and on the odd occasion on webcam,
but it is not the same... i need him here.
I am stressed out because of work and because school starting back in a few days,
then there is him.. i miss him and i feel like I am not happy.. I want to but then..
I think of him and miss him..
does he sit and think of me?
does he wonder what everything would of been like if he stayed?
does he miss me?
ahh I do not know!
why does everything have to be so complicated??
why can it not be easy.. why couldn't he stay?
two words... thats life
get over it I guess hey? move on find someone new?
I will try hopefully I will find someone this year..
hopefully they will be as good as him, but I do not think there are many guys like him around these days.
how many guys do you know that will open your door for you when you get in and out of a car?
be romantic and sweet.
how many guys have you heard say that they don't want to sleep with anyone until they are older.. they are not interested in all the "fun stuff" other guys are into.
not many! he was perfect he made me smile and laugh.
We could talk on the phone for hours and not run out of things to talk about!
man I miss him!
well im off, done enough venting :)
x
I am still thinking of him all the time!
Nearly every song I listen to I think of him so much!
When I am laying in bed he is on my mind.
Is that weird... I cannot stop thinking about him, but yet I still do not
know how I feel... obviously there is something but I am so confused!
I miss him.. I know that much.
I think about how everything would of turned out if he stayed...
but he didn't so what is the point he is gone..
I have not seen him since he left that day.
We talk on computer every so often and on the odd occasion on webcam,
but it is not the same... i need him here.
I am stressed out because of work and because school starting back in a few days,
then there is him.. i miss him and i feel like I am not happy.. I want to but then..
I think of him and miss him..
does he sit and think of me?
does he wonder what everything would of been like if he stayed?
does he miss me?
ahh I do not know!
why does everything have to be so complicated??
why can it not be easy.. why couldn't he stay?
two words... thats life
get over it I guess hey? move on find someone new?
I will try hopefully I will find someone this year..
hopefully they will be as good as him, but I do not think there are many guys like him around these days.
how many guys do you know that will open your door for you when you get in and out of a car?
be romantic and sweet.
how many guys have you heard say that they don't want to sleep with anyone until they are older.. they are not interested in all the "fun stuff" other guys are into.
not many! he was perfect he made me smile and laugh.
We could talk on the phone for hours and not run out of things to talk about!
man I miss him!
well im off, done enough venting :)
x
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Adelaide
well as was told I do have news.
a few days ago I met up with my 3 bestfriends; 2 from mildura, 1 from adelaide :)
we have not all been together since year 6 :( so it was quite the reunion! :)
it was so hard to say good bye to them again after all this time, but it had to be done.
Hopefully we all catch up again soon and not another 4 years :(
anyway.. i got to adelaide at around 2.25pm and the others got in around 2.30pm ish... and from the get go there was not one moment of awkward silence :):)
after we all arrived we caught a taxi back to N's house $25 taxi ride :S then we just hung around at her house :) caught up on all the goss :) took soom pictures and talked a little more.
The around 7 -7.30pm we went to the beach, got ice creams and watched the worst sunset ever! but who cares it was a moment never the less :) then we walked around a little. We ended up sitting in the medium? strip in the middle of the road hah :) on the grass and N got bird poo on her finger :P then we all talked a little more :) then B came and picked us up. when we got home we just laid around and ... talked :) the next day we left the house around nine am and didn't finish shopping until 5.30 - 6 pm :) then we all laid around for a little bit then we got dressed up and went out for dinner at a vietnamese resturant :) then walked home.. had a few scary moments then not much else. The next day we took what felt like the longest bus/tram rides to the bus station and by the time we got there S and K had to get on their bus and head home! so me and N walked around for a bit took some piks lost track of time and i got to the bus station 5 - 10 minutes before my bus was to leave :S but i got home okayy :) well that was my news :) hope you enjoyed it :P:P
xx
a few days ago I met up with my 3 bestfriends; 2 from mildura, 1 from adelaide :)
we have not all been together since year 6 :( so it was quite the reunion! :)
it was so hard to say good bye to them again after all this time, but it had to be done.
Hopefully we all catch up again soon and not another 4 years :(
anyway.. i got to adelaide at around 2.25pm and the others got in around 2.30pm ish... and from the get go there was not one moment of awkward silence :):)
after we all arrived we caught a taxi back to N's house $25 taxi ride :S then we just hung around at her house :) caught up on all the goss :) took soom pictures and talked a little more.
The around 7 -7.30pm we went to the beach, got ice creams and watched the worst sunset ever! but who cares it was a moment never the less :) then we walked around a little. We ended up sitting in the medium? strip in the middle of the road hah :) on the grass and N got bird poo on her finger :P then we all talked a little more :) then B came and picked us up. when we got home we just laid around and ... talked :) the next day we left the house around nine am and didn't finish shopping until 5.30 - 6 pm :) then we all laid around for a little bit then we got dressed up and went out for dinner at a vietnamese resturant :) then walked home.. had a few scary moments then not much else. The next day we took what felt like the longest bus/tram rides to the bus station and by the time we got there S and K had to get on their bus and head home! so me and N walked around for a bit took some piks lost track of time and i got to the bus station 5 - 10 minutes before my bus was to leave :S but i got home okayy :) well that was my news :) hope you enjoyed it :P:P
xx
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Hmm..
well it has been a few days since I have blogged but I just could not be bothered to go on the computer.
Today I went to work like usual and I was the only one there to help the chef... woo hoo... maybe not :S
To be honest I do not know what to talk about... there is a bit I want to say but I cant not just yet give me a few days, then I will be loaded :)
I am super tired so I will maybe write a bit later :)
xx
Today I went to work like usual and I was the only one there to help the chef... woo hoo... maybe not :S
To be honest I do not know what to talk about... there is a bit I want to say but I cant not just yet give me a few days, then I will be loaded :)
I am super tired so I will maybe write a bit later :)
xx
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Results!
Omg I worked it out!
The reason I thought I started cleaning my bedroom yesterday is because I did start yesterday the blogger site is a day behind.
Today it is the 14th but on my blog it says the 13th. Woo I worked it out!
I am not loosing my mind!! :D:D
The reason I thought I started cleaning my bedroom yesterday is because I did start yesterday the blogger site is a day behind.
Today it is the 14th but on my blog it says the 13th. Woo I worked it out!
I am not loosing my mind!! :D:D
Am I loosing my mind?!
Day 14
It is amazing how time flies. It felt like just yesterday I blogged (or whatever it is called) but it turns out it was two days ago! I swear I started to clean my bedroom yesterday! I think I may be loosing my mind!
Anyhoo today I am a tad pee'd off, I am sick of work! only because I really dislike my manager and when I am not at work where am I at home sweet home doing absolutely nothing! Man my life is boring.
I want to do stuff but you see I do not have my license so anything I want to do I have to ask mumsy and most of the time she does not want to do anything, so I am left to suffer!
Don't you hate it when you are supposed to get paid on this day but get paid days later? I do it is getting so annoying I need money to do things they should understand these thing... but they don't obviously! garr I mean work is getting soooooo annoying I really am thinking of trying to find another job to replace this one!
Well I will probably ... blog again later to let out some more steam :P
ttfn :)
It is amazing how time flies. It felt like just yesterday I blogged (or whatever it is called) but it turns out it was two days ago! I swear I started to clean my bedroom yesterday! I think I may be loosing my mind!
Anyhoo today I am a tad pee'd off, I am sick of work! only because I really dislike my manager and when I am not at work where am I at home sweet home doing absolutely nothing! Man my life is boring.
I want to do stuff but you see I do not have my license so anything I want to do I have to ask mumsy and most of the time she does not want to do anything, so I am left to suffer!
Don't you hate it when you are supposed to get paid on this day but get paid days later? I do it is getting so annoying I need money to do things they should understand these thing... but they don't obviously! garr I mean work is getting soooooo annoying I really am thinking of trying to find another job to replace this one!
Well I will probably ... blog again later to let out some more steam :P
ttfn :)
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